FAKE WORLD, HARSH REALITY....

Faking a laugh, faking a smile,
Hiding the truth behind a mask, while

my heart is breaking into pieces
with every smile that I give
That's the life that I live....

Used to believe in fairy tales, thinking it's a beautiful world
Then i was appalled with the truth that this world holds

I tried to fool myself and hide behind my dreams
Tried to make everything as simple as it seems

But deep inside, there were thousands of bursting tears,
with every smile that I used to give
that's the life that I live

Ended up with a broken heart,
ended up with my life ripped apart......

Ended up left alone in the darkness, crying,
Gave up n just quit trying.........

VALENTINES DAY...

Hearts and roses and kisses galore...
What the hell is that stuff for...
People get mushy and start acting queer...
It's definitely the most annoying day of the year...

This day needs to get the hell over with and pass...
Before I shove a dozen roses up Cupid's ass...
I'll spend the day so drunk I can't speak...
And wear all black for the rest of the week...


Guys act all sweet but soon it will fade...
For all they are doing is trying to get laid...
The arrow cupid shot at me must not have hit...
Because I think love is a humongous pile of shit...


So there's my story...what can I say...
Love bites ass...SCREW VALENTINE'S DAY...

P.S. - No offence meant !!!

I BEG YOU...

I am not begging you to love me,
I am not really even asking you,
But isn't it alright...if I cherish that hope in my heart??


If I dream of just holding your hand,
It will hurt me, not you.
I will try to keep my eyes from shining when they see you!
And I promise, I ll try not to smile a special smile ...
When you say hello..


But please don't ask me not to love you....

I WONDER...

I wonder,when a butterfly leaves the safety of its cocoon,does it know how beautiful it has become?Or does it still see itself as a caterpiller?

I wonder,why i’m so full of these endless thoughts,about the way i feel inside and why i cant ever get it right?

I wonder, if I can make anyone understand and there be no reason to think twice?

I wonder, if i changed, would my heart still race or would it march to a new beat?

I wonder, if i suddenly went blind, would you look in to my eyes?

I wonder what happens when i grow old and all my stories have been told?

I wonder why i wonder? I wonder to understand life.

The question is not when will we die, but how will we live? Think, how do you see yourself? All the struggles you’ve had and overcome, all the situations you’ve faced are somehow different than anyone else. Perhaps I’m a caterpillar who doesn’t realize that I am a beautiful butterfly. To live is not to understand life, but understand yourself. Life is not objective it is subjective. You’ve probabaly heard it before, but life is what you make it. Sometimes the things we can’t change, end up changing us. There are so many things to wonder, there must be more to life. God, religion, self, identity, love, hate, future and past. These are things to wonder.

I wonder, can I make something of this life?

Why can my mind never quite grasp the true essence of things? How is it that people are capable of treating each other so cruelly? And what is the ultimate way to become happy? Is happiness even a possible constant?

Sometimes I think about the story of the blind men who touch different parts of an elephant and say what they think it is, “a horse,” “a couch,” “a tree” – without realizing that they are only looking at a part of the whole, and that they are incorrect. 

I often feel like one of those blind men. When I feel like I’ve got a grasp on things, I start to worry that maybe I’m just full of it and am really missing the larger picture of life – so I’m not really getting anything, and I’m not going anywhere.

And is it just me, or do some people really not care about understanding life as long as their immediate needs get satisfied? Because that truly baffles me, I just can’t imagine being satisfied that simply and sometimes, I wish I could.......

Lonely Me!!

I am happy at times, but at times I am sad;
There are many things that keep me happy;
My friends,primarily,are concerned about me the most,
they never leave me alone,
they forgive me for all my follies and cheer me up
whenever I am depressed, without asking for anything in return.

Although I have many people around me
to take care of me, my friends, my family;
But nobody can take YOUR place...
Your memories haunt me day and night..
The more I try to forget you, the more you gnaw at me..

Even when I am sitting among numerous people,
and trying to enjoy..
just a thought about you..
and I am all alone...
I have become a slave of your memories.

Everything small thing reminds me of you and
the wonderful time spent with you..
those fights over petty things,
Calling it off in the morning and then saying..
'I Can't Live without you' in the evening,
those sweet nicknames that we used to give to each other,
those chats that used to last for hours,
those sweet memories of bygone days..
But now I am all ALONE,
haunted by your memories..

Why did you do this to me?
What was my fault?
I accept my mistake..
I fell in Love with you..
Neither you fell in love with me,
Nor you ever told me to..

But now I am happy for you,
I promise that I ll survive in my own lonely world,
But I won't bother you ever,
There's only one wish..
You be happy in your world..
I pray for you,
you may get whatever you wish..

With tears in my eyes,
I bid you good-bye..
You took all my happiness with you
And I still wish you be happy forever..

I may be sad,
I may be grieved,
I may be dejected,
And I may be heartbroken..
But I wish you be HAPPY forever,
You be exhilarated,
You be jubilant...
although at the expense of my happiness and desires..

SOMEBODY....

Somebody came into my dreams,
and left a thousand memories,
Somebody became mine,
and left me waiting...



Somebody is far from me today,
but very close to my heart,
Somebody became a stranger to me,
but left me the love of a thousand years,
Now the morning beauty is gone,
and the night of loneliness begins....



Somebody got close to me,
and my life completely changed..
Somebody left me to the bitter seasons,
and left me the memories of spring.....



Somebody made promises to me,
and left me with a broken heart,
Somebody came into my dreams,
and left a thousand memories,
If you are wondering who was it??
that SOMEBODY was .............. :-)

KITNE PYAAR SE...............

Kitne pyar se usne mujhko bhulaya hoga,
meri yaadon ne use khoob rulaya hoga.

Baat -be-baat aankh uski jo chalki hogi,
usne chehre ko baazuon mein chupaya hoga.

Socha hoga usne din mein kayi baar mujhe,
naam hatheli par bhi likh likh ke mitaya hoga.

Jahan usne mera zikr suna hoga kisi se,
uski aankhon mein koi aansu to aaya hoga.

Raat ke bheegne tak neend na aayi hogi tujhe,
tune takiye ko bhi seene se lagaaya hoga.

Hoke nidhaal meri yaadon se tune jaana,
meri tasveer par sir apna tikaaya hoga.

Poocha hoga jo kisi ne tere haalaat ka sabab,
tune baaton me khoob mujhe chupaya hoga......